For me myself, I believe true love exists.
The thing is, I just haven't found him yet. And though I believe I will meet him one day, I keep searching for him. Maybe he's a friend of mine from the same class. Maybe he's someone I bump into when I walk past the road. Maybe he's someone who attends the same concert with me. Everyone, every single damn person you see on the road, they could be your true love. The thing is, you're just too blind to look a little closer to them.
They are always there, with or without you realize.
They are the sense in your nonsense, the expectation in your reality, the amen in your prayers, the wish in your dreams, the tears in your cries, the beats in your heart, the melody in your music, the fantasy in your head, the sun in your morning, the moon in your night, the light in every dark path that guides you, the prince charming for your Cinderella, the happy in your ending......
I know this sounds so cliche, I know. I just think I need to remind you that somewhere out there, there is someone longing for your presence beside them. Somewhere out there, they are thinking about what you are doing right at this moment. Somewhere out there, they pray for you that you will be safe and sound here. You may not know who they are, but God will lead them to you eventually. You just have to wait for the right time to come around. And believe me, they are real. They exist somewhere on this earth.
On bad days, I will stop what I'm working on and stuff myself with anything I can think about. And usually, the conception of true love will come on my mind. For me, true love is not just someone you will marry one day. Is not. It's simply someone who will accept you for who you are, who will listen to every story of yours, who will stop you from self harm, who will love you still even if scars covering your precious skin, who will cuddle you up after a long rough day at work, who will treat you like a Disney princess, who will be your prince charming even if he's not that charming, who will be the father for your children and the grandfather for your grandchildren. Yes, true love does not share the big things, but they do share the little things.
When you have a bad day, don't blame the world for this. Instead, just remember that somewhere out there, there is someone who will be your true love praying for you that you will be okay right at that moment. And I promise you, I promise that the weight in your shoulders will be all gone. And with that, I hope you will be alright again. You are young and beautiful, Darling, don't you worry about anything. At the end of the day, you will find him. And he will always love you even you're no longer young and beautiful.
For me myself, I'm still searching for that one person until this very moment. Even if I'm still on high school and young, I wonder about my true love. I know I'm a rushy about this thing but I just want to find him, no matter how hard it would get. Why? Because every day, I always get tired of the society. I always get tired of life. I always get tired of everything. And all I want is someone I can come back to at the end of the day. And you know what? Yes, I need a home. My home would just be a simple man. I want him to be my cuddle partner on cold days. I want him to listen to my stories. I want him to accept me for me. And when I find that man, I wouldn't ask for anything more.
I know I am a fangirl. I fangirl a lot over One Direction and Ed Sheeran. And I've always believed that someday, Ed Sheeran or Niall Horan would be the one I'd call my true love. I know that wouldn't happen anyway. And even though I know that would never happen in billion years, I keep believing. The thing is, I get tired of waiting lately. I get tired of waiting for that day to come around that I know would never come either. So few days ago, before I go to sleep, I decided to stop myself from wanting Ed or Niall to be my true love. Somehow I know it's so unrealistic. But I was once a fangirl. And that's simply the life of fangirl. But today when I woke up, I asked myself all of sudden. Do I still love they? Will I still love them? Will they still be my true love?
The answer is; I would never know.
Yes, I indeed still love them. They are the reason I met so many people. They are the reason why I smile on bad days. They are them, my every reason of living this world. And yes, I will still love them. In 40 years, I will love them still. In 100 years, I will love them still. No matter how old I would get, they would always have a special place in my heart. And I think that's what matters. And for that one last question, I think it's a different story...
One day, I will meet someone who will be my one and only. And Ed and Niall, they would always be the people I idolize. One day, I will marry someone I believe as my true love. And Ed and Niall, they would always be the people I idolize. One day, I will have children and grandchildren. And right at that point, I will tell them how much I love Ed and Niall as my idols. They don't have to know how Ed and Niall look like. They just have to know that I love their father/grandfather equals to how much I love Ed and Niall. Though the kind of love I feel for them is totally a different kind of love, I will keep loving them equally.
So one day, if I ever found this post, I'd smile to myself and thank God for all his bless. I wouldn't ask for Ed or Niall to be my true love anymore. Because I know... I know that God has planned a bigger plan than I had for myself. So for whoever you are, my true love, I hope you are fine right at this moment. I send all my prayers to you, Darling, because I always wish you the best. So if we ever meet one day, I hope I don't forget every single day that I send you my prayers, just because I love you as much, Darling.
I guess, this is the end of my teenage life. I guess, I'm going to move on from now on. I guess, I'm going to stop loving them and face my high school life anyway. I know... I know that I will still love them that I could never get rid this feeling off of my head. But it's not like I could stuck in this fangirl life forever. I need to grow up and move on. Maybe I'm still going to talk about them. But little by little I'll try to let them go. But I promise these feelings would never fade away. These would just be kept in my deepest heart that when the day to refresh it come around, I'd remember them anyway and love them right still.
For One Direction and Ed Sheeran, thank you so much for a long journey.
Love,
Me. xx
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idektatablake ® November 2013.
For those whom I call my idols, One Direction and Ed Sheeran, thank you for giving me such a beautiful adventure in life. And also for the one who will be my true love, I wish you all the very best, my dear.
They are always there, with or without you realize.
They are the sense in your nonsense, the expectation in your reality, the amen in your prayers, the wish in your dreams, the tears in your cries, the beats in your heart, the melody in your music, the fantasy in your head, the sun in your morning, the moon in your night, the light in every dark path that guides you, the prince charming for your Cinderella, the happy in your ending......
I know this sounds so cliche, I know. I just think I need to remind you that somewhere out there, there is someone longing for your presence beside them. Somewhere out there, they are thinking about what you are doing right at this moment. Somewhere out there, they pray for you that you will be safe and sound here. You may not know who they are, but God will lead them to you eventually. You just have to wait for the right time to come around. And believe me, they are real. They exist somewhere on this earth.
On bad days, I will stop what I'm working on and stuff myself with anything I can think about. And usually, the conception of true love will come on my mind. For me, true love is not just someone you will marry one day. Is not. It's simply someone who will accept you for who you are, who will listen to every story of yours, who will stop you from self harm, who will love you still even if scars covering your precious skin, who will cuddle you up after a long rough day at work, who will treat you like a Disney princess, who will be your prince charming even if he's not that charming, who will be the father for your children and the grandfather for your grandchildren. Yes, true love does not share the big things, but they do share the little things.
When you have a bad day, don't blame the world for this. Instead, just remember that somewhere out there, there is someone who will be your true love praying for you that you will be okay right at that moment. And I promise you, I promise that the weight in your shoulders will be all gone. And with that, I hope you will be alright again. You are young and beautiful, Darling, don't you worry about anything. At the end of the day, you will find him. And he will always love you even you're no longer young and beautiful.
For me myself, I'm still searching for that one person until this very moment. Even if I'm still on high school and young, I wonder about my true love. I know I'm a rushy about this thing but I just want to find him, no matter how hard it would get. Why? Because every day, I always get tired of the society. I always get tired of life. I always get tired of everything. And all I want is someone I can come back to at the end of the day. And you know what? Yes, I need a home. My home would just be a simple man. I want him to be my cuddle partner on cold days. I want him to listen to my stories. I want him to accept me for me. And when I find that man, I wouldn't ask for anything more.
I know I am a fangirl. I fangirl a lot over One Direction and Ed Sheeran. And I've always believed that someday, Ed Sheeran or Niall Horan would be the one I'd call my true love. I know that wouldn't happen anyway. And even though I know that would never happen in billion years, I keep believing. The thing is, I get tired of waiting lately. I get tired of waiting for that day to come around that I know would never come either. So few days ago, before I go to sleep, I decided to stop myself from wanting Ed or Niall to be my true love. Somehow I know it's so unrealistic. But I was once a fangirl. And that's simply the life of fangirl. But today when I woke up, I asked myself all of sudden. Do I still love they? Will I still love them? Will they still be my true love?
The answer is; I would never know.
Yes, I indeed still love them. They are the reason I met so many people. They are the reason why I smile on bad days. They are them, my every reason of living this world. And yes, I will still love them. In 40 years, I will love them still. In 100 years, I will love them still. No matter how old I would get, they would always have a special place in my heart. And I think that's what matters. And for that one last question, I think it's a different story...
One day, I will meet someone who will be my one and only. And Ed and Niall, they would always be the people I idolize. One day, I will marry someone I believe as my true love. And Ed and Niall, they would always be the people I idolize. One day, I will have children and grandchildren. And right at that point, I will tell them how much I love Ed and Niall as my idols. They don't have to know how Ed and Niall look like. They just have to know that I love their father/grandfather equals to how much I love Ed and Niall. Though the kind of love I feel for them is totally a different kind of love, I will keep loving them equally.
So one day, if I ever found this post, I'd smile to myself and thank God for all his bless. I wouldn't ask for Ed or Niall to be my true love anymore. Because I know... I know that God has planned a bigger plan than I had for myself. So for whoever you are, my true love, I hope you are fine right at this moment. I send all my prayers to you, Darling, because I always wish you the best. So if we ever meet one day, I hope I don't forget every single day that I send you my prayers, just because I love you as much, Darling.
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| But Darling, please remind me that I've loved him once. |
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| And Darling, will I still love him 'till the day I meet you? I don't know. |
I guess, this is the end of my teenage life. I guess, I'm going to move on from now on. I guess, I'm going to stop loving them and face my high school life anyway. I know... I know that I will still love them that I could never get rid this feeling off of my head. But it's not like I could stuck in this fangirl life forever. I need to grow up and move on. Maybe I'm still going to talk about them. But little by little I'll try to let them go. But I promise these feelings would never fade away. These would just be kept in my deepest heart that when the day to refresh it come around, I'd remember them anyway and love them right still.
For One Direction and Ed Sheeran, thank you so much for a long journey.
Love,
Me. xx
***
idektatablake ® November 2013.
For those whom I call my idols, One Direction and Ed Sheeran, thank you for giving me such a beautiful adventure in life. And also for the one who will be my true love, I wish you all the very best, my dear.
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